The H Word

Many people automatically have a negative connotation with regard to hospice. In my experience so far, it is the reprieve we so desperately need. The nurse came today (stayed for almost 4 hours) and arranged everything we might need for Bill's care. Medications are being delivered tonight and a nurse will come tomorrow to rearrange some of them. Since he is on oral medications, we will switch some over to liquid drops. He had some major bouts of nauseousness today and vomited twice... once having just taken his pain meds.

Our goal now is to keep him comfortable and out of pain. Although he's pretty loopy, I know his pain level is not an issue. Hospice will provide so many amazing services that I feel like a weight has been lifted and he is getting the treatment he needs. I must be honest to say that things are progressing quickly and my goal is to follow all of Bill's wishes and plans written in his directive. As hard as it is to actually make decisions on his behalf, I know what he wants (and doesn't want) and am trying to separate my wants from his.

We are doing well, with intermittent tears mixed with some funny moments. (You have to laugh sometimes...) Fortunately, we have an immense amount of help, support, and prayers. One day at a time...