Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Bad News

I wish I had good news... the appointment tomorrow at the City of Hope was cancelled this evening. They said the new drugs for the study were not approved yet and the paperwork is not done for necessary tests to be run. The disappointment is astounding and the heartache is even worse. It is not easy to stay positive and upbeat when treatment hasn't started and appointments are constantly cancelled and rescheduled. It is even harder to maintain strength when you see the one you love with all your soul in extreme pain, both physically and mentally. My heart hurts tonight...

7 comments:

Heather said...

Jackie I am sooo sorry for you! I know you are anxiously awaiting treatment to start, so Bill will be healed from this horrid horrid disease, and your lives can begin to resemble some form of normalcy. You both are in my prayers!

Susan and Kevin said...

Hi Jackie and Bill,
I can understand your pain and frustration. Sometimes it seems like life just isn't fair. I hope and pray that the City of Hope surprises you very quickly with a "full steam ahead" phone call. I don't mean to sound trivial here, but in the meantime is there any "holistic" type of remedies that you could try while waiting for the "go ahead" phone call from COH? Stay strong. Love,
Susan and Kevin

Anonymous said...

Mrs. Bartak,

I'm so sorry to hear that the appointment was canceled! I've been hoping that your husband had started treatment so he could begin the healing process. Just keep your head up. You're an amazing woman and I look up to you with so much respect. I'm praying for both of you.

With love always,
Stephanie

Anonymous said...

Oh, Jackie and Bill...My heart goes out to you. The feelings of despair must be so overwhelming. I'm so very sorry that you both are wrenching in so much emotional and physical pain.
Please! Just try not to give up! This disease is going to take every ounce of emotional strength you have in order to overcome each hurdle. Stay pro-active! You fight this fight with all the positive energy you can draw from and know that your family and family of friends are holding you all in prayer.
Loving you!
Aunt J

Susan said...

Jackie and Bill,
I can't pretend to understand how you must feel right now. I know you wanted this day to be the beginning of treatment for this horrible cancer and that you have already been waiting so long. I hope you can find a little bit of peace in your day today and know that I am thinking of you and praying for you all the time.
Love,
Aunt Sue

Anonymous said...

Jackie- my prayers are focused your way. I am sorry that this has been so frustrating, and all I can do is send the words of wisdom from my dad, This too shall pass. Everything is going to be ok, and we're all with you!

Sydni- DOOPS

Anonymous said...

Keep your head up lady, you are a very strong person, not many people I know could handle all that you are right now and not fall apart! I am sure that this will all get going soon and that all our prayers will be heard and Bill will be the one that is healed in this trial! I am sure that it can seem insurmountable at times but keep being positive as this is also a huge mechanism in healing...the two of you are a true insperation! Love, Julie and Lenny